In my fingertips
Well, this is Lorelei. And today was my second to last chemo! It's sooo close. As my mom said in the previous post, chemo is rough. The last chemo's are hardest.. But I am fighting.
My white blood counts have been perfect my entire journey and we expected them to be around 10.0 today. They are at 5.6. By all means, this is NOT a bad white blood count, so we continued with treatment, but it IS lower than normal for me. I'm asking for prayer as I inch my way through treatment. Specifically I pray for protection from bacteria, viruses, colds.. Those sorts of things as chemo takes a blow to my immune system.
So far, everything feels about how you would expect your 11th chemo out of 12 to feel. I usually describe the chemo exhaustion as feeling "heavy." Today I feel so heavy that I feel like someone is constantly pushing down on my shoulders. Not cool. But that goes away in a few days.
I ate breakfast this morning but haven't tried to eat yet after chemo. This has come to be the most trying part of recovery for me.. I mean, all I'm asking for is some Pizza Rolls that taste normal!! :P I kid, but not really. I describe the way my body feels as "chemical." The best way to describe that for non-chemo-goers is it feels like I drank bleach. So food doesn't sound great.. But you get hungry and food starts to sound not half bad.. I always try to eat, never doubting the power of my God, but for the 48 hours after chemo all food tastes the same. It has a rather awful taste.. Or after taste.. And I can't put anything down until the third day after chemo.
This isn't me complaining. I am grateful to receive treatment, (Yes, really) but I am using this opportunity to be real with my fellow Christians and ask them to bring my requests to the Lord with me!! I put my trust in the Lord and knows he hears our prayers.
Posted on Thu, June 28, 2012
by Lorelei Decker